Holy Freaking Slow Freaking Weeeeeek!!!
This no POAS thing is A LOT harder than I imagined!
It seriously makes me feel like an addict who can't get her fix!
Day after day of telling myself no I am starting to wonder
if this was a good choice? Do I really want no heads up at all?
Do I seriously want to find out the results of this cycle
over the phone? with no freaking clue what their going to say?
I really have no feelings on which way it's going to go?!?
and it's driving me CRAZY!!!
Sometimes I can be sitting on the couch and the thought pops in
my head saying ya your definitely pregnant!
then 10 minutes later I have a cramp or something that triggers
the thought..Nope it didn't work. Better luck next month.
What should I do? Should I POAS Friday before my Beta?
Or should I hold out and just take the call..
uh you guys.. my stomach sinks just thinking about it!
my stomach sinks every time I see their number on my phone when they call.
Scott said it's up to me...
But I am just having a hard time deciding!
I mean I have made it this far? so why ruin it now?
but what if they call and say it's Negative and I am more heartbroken?
I am of course obsessing over every symptom
and most of them can go either way but there are two
that stand out as big red flags to me..
a pinching pain two days ago in my lower right side (ovary area)
that seriously stopped me in my tracks and had me bent over
holding my side...then yesterday the pinching continued
but it was like spasms not constant.
The other is the lower back pain OmyGoodness...
the lower back pain started the same day as the pinching
and remained alllll day yesterday!
Now as any TTC(AL)'ER would
I did all the googling I could, and hit up all of the forums of success stories
with woman who experienced this pinching and lower back pain..
All I found were success stories but then again that's all I was really looking for.
Soooo...To POAS or NOT?!?