Thursday, June 13, 2013

Another Wish That Didn't Come True..

I can't let myself give up on the idea 
that wishes and dreams really do come true just yet. 
But damn it's getting hard to believe. 
IUI#3 didn't turn out to be the "lucky" one. 
6.12.13 One day before my testing date I stated to spot and cramp. 
I knew it was over with the first twinge of that intense pain in my abdomen.
I don't know what went wrong. 
I don't know why it's not working. 
and I am starting to doubt my Dr. 
When I first met with Dr. B April of 2012 
just 3 short weeks after my D&C, I had full faith in him. 
I mean he is one of the best in the area, his record is great 
and I hear woman raving about him all the time. 
But after 3 medicated cycles and our wtf appointment 
I never saw him again. It was like I was shipped off to the 
almost-good-okay-but-not-great Doctor that is in practice with him. 
Dr. G 
He is a weird nice guy. But he just isn't getting the job done. 
I HATE that they never know my name or my history when I go in. 
They always act surprised when I mention that I have in fact 
been pregnant before, 3 times to be exact. 
It's just so irritating to me that they can't take 5 minutes before 
to review your chart and practice saying your name before they 
come in calling you Alex and assuming you've never been pregnant. 
Enough ranting. 
End result is going to be that we will end up switching Dr.s 
It makes me a little sad because there are some nurses 
there that I truly adore. But the cons have officially out weighed the pros. 
This month I am going on a business trip for 8 days 
and it happens to be right in the middle of when I would need to be 
in town for things like, ultrasounds and um the actual procedure. 
Sooo. We will be taking this cycle off. 
It will also give me time to do some final research on 
other Dr.s in the area. Hopefully we can make the switch before August. 
Until then I guess the old fashion way is all we can do. 
Who knows what will happen.. 
All I can do today is work at keeping my faith alive, 
work on keeping my husbands faith alive and work on 
being the best me that I can be. 
Thanks for all your love and support through this 
stupid crazy f(&*^ up Shit

Thursday, June 6, 2013

Pack 'em up move 'em out!

Soooooo do you all remember my post(s) on my 
 and how I am so 
"All or Nothing" 

Well we are back on the Moving train! 
We kept going back and forth as to whether to list our home.
there were so many pros and cons to the whole thing 
that we just couldn't make up our mind. 
But with in the last 3 months 3 houses in our 
neighborhood have sold for asking price.. 
One was only on the market for a month! 
This got us excited and ready to move forward! 
We contacted my great aunt (our Realtor) 
and she is set to come out Saturday morning! 
Last week we went and got a storage unit 
and a million and one boxes! 
We have already started "decluttering" everything! 
Last night L and I spent 4.5 hours in the kitchen alone! 
Tonight we are going back at it to complete the kitchen / dining room.
Then move on the the bathrooms and bedrooms.. 
I basically want the house to be "show" ready by Saturday.
I am planing to hire a cleaning company to come once a week
to keep it sparkling clean for showings. 
We are shooting for 3-4 weeks to have that sign in our yard! 
Where will we move you ask?
Good question! 
We know some of the areas that we would love to be in..
and I did find this house that is just a little more than what we were
looking to spend.....But...
I am hoping by the time we list and sell that the price will be reduced a little.. 
and we are also praying that our current house gets appraised higher than
we are thinking.. If all goes well I will be living in this beauty in no time! :) 

ttc front... No news is good news?
Not much is happening I did have some 
slight cramping last night (8dpiui) 
and I am still  holding strong on not testing.. 
6•13•13 is closer than it feels..right?!

Step away from the pee sticks! 

Monday, June 3, 2013


• Frizzy summer hair • Big Bonfires • back yard football in the rain
• Swimming with my pseudo children • Steak and Chicken • Mia profile
• Police officer or a scuba master?  • Peyton ♥'s lemons • Maxwell on the run

• Mom & Dad *Happy Birthday DAD!* • Peyton • Holy Fire!
• Nathan and Mia dancing • Apple Pie • Mohawk king •
• Babies on the corn hole boards • Dancing pros • Me & Dad! 

What an eventful weekend! 
So much fun! 
Happy Birthday DAD! 

ttc update: nothing going on really! 
I have my progesterone drawl tomorrow 
decided not to test out my trigger! 
Officially testing 

Just 10 more days! :)