Tuesday, January 27, 2015

Silly Me...

I read my last post and laughed. 
The hope I always hold month after month..
Ohhhh Ahhh EWCM this will be the month!
So stupid. 
I'm in a weird place right now. 
I'm in limbo, 
I was set and ready to start IVF in March
I have talked with the Nurses and the plan is a go. 
But now I'm second guessing my choices. 
I hate this office. 
I just took a minute to read back 
through my blog and turns out I've hated them 
since 2012...Its 2015...
what the hell is wrong with me?
Why have I stuck around so long?
I know why. It's because I'm fearful 
of starting over with a new RE.. 
I HATE going to new doctors..
I HATE going over every shitty situation that has 
occurred in the last 5 year...
I just don't want to do it. 
But on the other hand. I want a baby. 
I want to make my husband a father 
and my parents and in laws grandparents...
I tell myself it comes down to how 
bad do you want it. 

I posted a long post on my TTC_Babywarrick IG account
you are welcome to read... 
But to sum it up. 
I am going to see my OB on moday..
I trust him, 
I am comfortable with him. 
and after my last miscarriage he promised to 
help me in any way he could. 
I value his opinion..
and in my opinion he helped me get pregnant 
this last time..after 6 short months of seeing him...
Dr. B on the other hand...
3 years...a million ultrasounds,
3 IUI's injections and so on 
and nothing...not one single BFP..
That has to speak volumes..
and now im ready to listen.
I will update after my appointment Monday 
if there is anyone out there that still reads this..
and you're the praying type send one up for us.. 

Wednesday, January 7, 2015


Repeat Randy...
Hey guess what?! 
I'm in the 2ww again! for the 2359072 time! -_-
So December's round of clomid didn't pan out..
I think part of it is my fault since I screwed up the days..
but no ovulation occurred and my period showed up 
on time, the only positive in this case. 
So last week I started getting awful pains 
in my right side, a clear sign of O'ing for me
then the EWCM showed two days 
later I got a super dark OPK 
that showed in like 30 seconds. 
seriously fasted shit I've ever seen.. 
*Because I am no rookie 
I started the BD process the moment 
I felt the cramping :) 
I'm thinking we should have all our bases covered. 
Maybe we will just throw in one more night for fun haha!

Also I started a new IG account
click the pic for the link.. 
my user name is 
Original right? 
Yes there are pictures of my cats..
Don't judge me their the only
thing I can mother right now
So I have a question about this pineapple saga 
that seems to be taking the TTC world by the balls.
Okay, I've been on this roller coaster far too long, 
I've googled the shit out of some shit...
But does the pineapple thing really work?
Like is this something I should have been 
trying for the past 4+ years?
I would really hate to one day 
tell my story with an ending that goes something like
"So I ate a pineapple core and 9 months later out popped little Johnny"
(*Not that I would ever name my baby Johnny)
Seriously though..when do you really eat it?
some say after ovulation..as in after your positive opk or
like 2 days later after the egg drops? 
I'm so confused and now I'm craving pineapple.. Damit

Feed me your thoughts...