Monday, February 24, 2014


Ever since my Jillian Leigh joined the Air Force 
we have been randomly surprising each other with visits! 
This past weekend my aunt and my mom 
were headed down to Alabama to meet Jillian and her girls 
and drive them back home to Ohio for the week. 
It was a short weekend trip so I decided to go with them and surprise her!! 
This is a short clip of the hidden camera video we got of 
the official surprise!


Monday, February 17, 2014

CD5 Clomid Round 7

Its CD5! 
and the start of my 7th round of clomid. 
My rounds have been pretty well spaced out, 
my first 3 were in 2012 
last three we did started around March of last year. 
Lets hope this one works! 

Come on Lucky number 7!!! 


have a great week! 

Friday, February 7, 2014

Two Years...

It's hard for me to believe 
that it has been two years to this day 
that we found out were were pregnant for the third time. 
I remember every single moment about that day. 
The excitement I felt as I realized 
I was officially "late"
I tip toed to the hall closet 
grabbed an ept and crept back 
to the bathroom. 
I remember setting the test on the counter,
sitting down on the toilet and 
tapping my foot with anxiety..
I kept track of the time with my phone 
exactly at the three minute mark 
I jumped up and grabbed the test. 
It was positive. 
I was in shock. 
I stood still for what seemed like and eternity. 
I didn't know what to do next. 
I had a little while before I had to wake Scott
for work, but I was bursting with excitement 
and rushed in to tell him. 
I sat down on the bed and shook him lightly.
"Babe, Babe!" 
"It worked!" 
"I'm Pregnant" 
The two words I had longed to say to him. 
I had just said. 
His eyes welled with tears as he hugged me tightly. 
I made it to the shower before 
I began to sob. 
Uncontrollable sobs of joy. 
I thanked God over and over. 
I had planned on keeping it from my parents. 
Just for a day or so until I could come up 
with some cute way to tell them. 
But the excitement was too intense to hold in! 
I ran and got blood work that morning, 
It was 8am & I was the first one at the lab!  
and got the results very early that afternoon
then Scott and I met my parents for lunch 
at our favorite Sushi restaurant. 
My dad arrived first and he could tell 
I had something to share! 
I showed him the test and told him 
when Mom arrived I would text her a picture 
Once she arrived I sent 3 texts in a row..
Not once did she glance down at her phone! 
I finally had to tell her to check her messages..
She didn't quite understand 
what she was looking at, at first
then she said, "What's This?"  
More sobbing around the table 
as we celebrated the life 
we had longed to create. 
The rest of the night Scott and I spent talking 
about the future... 
It was one of the best days of our lives. 
I will forever remember that day. 
♥  2.7.12  ♥


Monday, February 3, 2014

Groundhog Day: Infertility

Sometimes this journey seems like a blur. 
Sometimes if feels like years sometimes only months. 
I don't know why I am lacking my 
"Go gett'em" attitude right now?!?

I just feel so laid back. 
Maybe it is fear holding me back. 
Maybe the thought of ultrasounds, follicle scans, 
blood work and self injections are simply not appealing to me right now. 
Please don't get me wrong, I want to build our family more now than ever. 
I simply don't have the drive to get back in the car 
and continue driving to a destination when I always seem to wreck. 

I talked to Dr. D this morning. 
He is nice, and I still have faith in him. 
But I had to laugh out loud when he said 
"Hello Alexis, one of the nurses said we had a missed period 
and I have the results of your lab work" "Your HCG is negative."
Once I finished laughing I said as calmly as I could.. 
I did not miss a period. I had the labs drawn that you requested, 
you know the ones that show you my hormone levels 
my LH and FSH ect.. 
I think he felt stupid, as the response I got was 10 seconds of silence. 
"Oh, yes! I apologize"
"Your hormone levels look great, your cbc was excellent. 
and your estradiol was fantastic! 
"Now refresh my memory, are you taking metformin?"
Yes yes I am. 
Shall I go ahead and give you my whole history 
yet again?
He was trying to end the conversation when I said, 
um we were going to talk about trying clomid or femara again
"Oh yes!" he replied. "Lets do clomid 50mg days 5-7" 
"I'll call it in today!" 
Does anyone get where I am going with the title to this post?!

Not only am I going to try the lowest dose of clomid... 
I will not be monitored..
{I heard that gasp...}
 You know what though, I am surprisingly okay with it all. 
the "lazyness" of it all. 
I think it's what I need right now 
It's like sticking my stubbed toe back in the salt water. 
and what will be will be. 
If it doesn't work. We'll move on.