Another Wish That Didn't Come True..

I can't let myself give up on the idea 

that wishes and dreams really do come true just yet. 

But damn it's getting hard to believe. 

IUI#3 didn't turn out to be the "lucky" one. 

6.12.13 One day before my testing date I stated to spot and cramp. 

I knew it was over with the first twinge of that intense pain in my abdomen.

I don't know what went wrong. 

I don't know why it's not working. 

and I am starting to doubt my Dr. 

When I first met with Dr. B April of 2012 

just 3 short weeks after my D&C, I had full faith in him. 

I mean he is one of the best in the area, his record is great 

and I hear woman raving about him all the time. 

But after 3 medicated cycles and our wtf appointment 

I never saw him again. It was like I was shipped off to the 

almost-good-okay-but-not-great Doctor that is in practice with him. 

Dr. G 

He is a weird nice guy. But he just isn't getting the job done. 

I HATE that they never know my name or my history when I go in. 

They always act surprised when I mention that I have in fact 

been pregnant before, 3 times to be exact. 

It's just so irritating to me that they can't take 5 minutes before 

to review your chart and practice saying your name before they 

come in calling you Alex and assuming you've never been pregnant. 

Enough ranting. 

End result is going to be that we will end up switching Dr.s 

It makes me a little sad because there are some nurses 

there that I truly adore. But the cons have officially out weighed the pros. 

This month I am going on a business trip for 8 days 

and it happens to be right in the middle of when I would need to be 

in town for things like, ultrasounds and um the actual procedure. 

Sooo. We will be taking this cycle off. 

It will also give me time to do some final research on 

other Dr.s in the area. Hopefully we can make the switch before August. 

Until then I guess the old fashion way is all we can do. 

Who knows what will happen.. 

All I can do today is work at keeping my faith alive, 

work on keeping my husbands faith alive and work on 

being the best me that I can be. 

Thanks for all your love and support through this 

stupid crazy f(&*^ up Shit

Journey. 

:)