Wake me up next Tuesday...

So before my Chicago post I  have to get this post out of my head. 

I am 8dpo a week late in my cycle because I stair stepped with clomid

to jump start my ovaries into action, which worked. But confuses the crap out of me. 

The time for my period has come and gone,

 but it's due to my ovulation being a week off 

To look at the pms app and see that your 3 days past your red box 

can make you crazy!!

this stair stepping process also turned my 2ww into a full blown 3ww 

and to say I am dying to pee on something is an understatement. 

Some serious will power has kept me steering my truck away 

from the pharmacy on a daily basis. Although today I have to go pick up a card

from the drug store, you know the one that sells the things. 

The things crazy infertile

woman will kill to pee on!

But I just cant! I never tested out my trigger 

and I triggered twice! Thursday will mark a week from my 

last trigger and I will be 10dpo, which in a perfect fertile's world would 

be a great time to test. But not for me, I just can't. I feel like I am talking 

myself down off the edge daily. I'm just so nervous that it didn't work. 

but I am keeping the most positive thoughts I can, I lay in bed and picture

peeing on that stick and those two pink lines appearing instantly

I imagine the nurse calling after my beta and saying 

congratulations your pregnant! 

I try to imagine a perfect ultrasound and in that 

imagination I always see two babies. 

Oh dear lord. Only 7 more days until my beta test. 

I decided I will test at home early that morning

while Scott is still home, that way I am not calling him 

in the middle of the day crying, being it good or bad. 

s e v e n more days that's it! I can do this! 

Okay off to upload a billion pictures from our 

fantastic trip to Chicago!