What Cycle Am I On?

Someone asked me today 

what number cycle we are on...

All I could do was stare back at them 

with a blank expression. 

I. have. no. clue. 

You see after so many years 

and so many cycles your mind goes foggy. 

I think every time a cycle works I 

instantly loose count 

but then the pregnancy ends 

and I am thrown back in the sea of 

what seems like endless cycles. 

some of them lasting 90 days 

some only 20. 

It's like being picked up by 

a tornado and then being slammed back 

down in a very unfamiliar place. 

With a little digging through my blog

I've come to the conclusion that we 

are currently in the 2ww of cycle.. 

12! 

That's a big number. 

I hope it doesn't get any bigger. 

Today is 8dpo 

and Ovia says I have 6 more days 

until I can test!

Exactly 1 week before Christmas 

we will know the fate of cycle 12. 

Dear Santa, 

Please bring me a BFP followed by 

an uneventful, yet joyful pregnancy 

followed by the safe delivery 

of our healthy rainbow baby!! 

Thanks, 

Alexis