I feel like I am on repeat
every time I post that we are
again in the 2ww.
In a way I kind of feel more
and more like a fool
every time I label a post 2ww..
Like it's really going to happen this time...
I did another unmonitored
cycle of clomid 150mg.
my first since May when it actually worked.
I've had 2 doctors now do
a slue of testing and one say to me
I think your miscarriages might
just be bad luck.
So that's where we are.
Hoping our bad luck streak is over.
I'll be back in two weeks with an
update of where we are.
Why I haven't been blogging.
I've been asking myself this
question a lot in the last couple weeks.
I miss it. I really do.
But I am lost.
I got too wrapped up in the whole
what do my readers want, side of it all.
when really the truth is
I started blogging for me.
for my husband.
for my family to keep them
in the loop of where we were at
in our journey to start a family.
I would get on to write a post
and think no one will care to read
that, what if they think what I am
saying is offensive, what if they judge me?!
I probably wont even get any
That's where it all goes wrong.
When you start to worry about
the stuff that in the long run doesn't really matter.
I'm sad that these past 6 months I haven't
I feel like so much has happened
and I didn't document it.
So I am going to make
an effort to get back here
to my tiny corner of the Internet
to write about what I want to write
about. About my life. about our life.
and about our journey.