2ww and why I haven't been blogging

I feel like I am on repeat 

every time I post that we are 

again in the 2ww. 

In a way I kind of feel more 

and more like a fool 

every time I label a post 2ww..

Like it's really going to happen this time...

I did another unmonitored 

cycle of clomid 150mg. 

my first since May when it actually worked. 

I've had 2 doctors now do 

a slue of testing and one say to me 

I think your miscarriages might 

just be bad luck. 

So that's where we are. 

Hoping our bad luck streak is over. 

I'll be back in two weeks with an 

update of where we are. 

Why I haven't been blogging. 

I've been asking myself this 

question a lot in the last couple weeks.

I miss it. I really do. 

But I am lost. 

I got too wrapped up in the whole 

what do my readers want, side of it all. 

when really the truth is 

I started blogging for me. 

for my husband. 

for my family to keep them 

in the loop of where we were at 

in our journey to start a family.

I would get on to write a post 

and think no one will care to read 

that, what if they think what I am 

saying is offensive, what if they judge me?!

I probably wont even get any 

comments.....

That's where it all goes wrong. 

When you start to worry about 

the stuff that in the long run doesn't really matter. 

I'm sad that these past 6 months I haven't 

written much. 

I feel like so much has happened 

and I didn't document it. 

So I am going to make 

an effort to get back here

to my tiny corner of the Internet 

to write about what I want to write 

about. About my life. about our life. 

and about our journey.