8 7 more days till my Beta!
I say 7 because technically today is almost over for me :)
Plus 7 is better than 8!
I went back and forth with myself for far
to long as to whether I wanted to "test out" my trigger.
This is a huge double edged sword for me.
On the plus side, I would know when it's a real BFP.
On the down side, I hate seeing that line disappear.
I feel calm today.
I have been trying very hard not to notice
things as "signs" or "symptoms:"
like the flutters and spontaneous cramps
or the constant dryness of my throat
with urges to drink gallons of water.
Is that even a symptom?
I really don't know.
I have also tried to stay away from google.
It's silly really, to google things like this.
because in reality the things that I would
google would lead me to the answers that I want.
not the answers that I would rather not hear.
pointless I tell ya. just pointless.
My Doctors office told me last week
that they have started suggesting taking a hpt before
going in for your blood test. That way if it is negative
you can avoid the blood suckers.
When the nurse told me this I laughed to myself
thinking, you guys really must not understand
ttc crazed women...
It a perfect world that would sound great,
to pee on a stick see a second line and then go in for blood work.
in a ttc crazed woman's world it would consist of
peeing on 10 to 12 hpts, ripping them open
holding them to the light, even using a magnified glass
to try and find any hint of pink in that second line.
Then go back and forth with herself as to whether she
should go in for the blood work, or take the stark white test in
her hand as a negative and go about her day.
(not that I have ever done any of the above)
Today spring is in the air.
the feeling of warmth and things coming to life.
It makes me giddy inside to think of
The cookouts and bonfires, sitting out on the back porch
watching the dog explore the yard. Laughing with friends and family.
hearing the crickets sing the night away and the birds
with their early morning chatter.
I am ready for it!
I can't help but picture myself pregnant
in every one of these visions.
My best friend from child hood is getting married
this July in Cali and I am honored to be
a bridesmaid. If everything works out like it should
I will be 18 weeks pregnant then.
I also was just presented with information
about a trip in June for work.
I will be traveling west to Las Vegas
for a huge bowling convention.
and again if everything works out like it should
I will be 13 weeks along.
Every day we are one step closer.
I can't help but think
about how amazing it is that our lives
could possibly change in one short week.
& to the ladies that are cycling along side of me right now,
I think about you too, how I so badly want good news for you as well.
I want to end today's post with a very special
congratulations to Maria and Steve
over at Everyday is A Country Song
their beautiful daughter Piper Grace was
born last week She is an absolutely doll baby!
If you haven't had the pleasure of meeting Maria
You're missing out! head over and check her out!
I'll be back later this week with
an update on how the wrap up of the 2ww is going
have a fabulous week ladies!