Friday, August 24, 2012

A pregnant lady walks into a strip club

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Okay not really, I just thought it would be a good attention grabber! 
did I grab ya?
:) Good!  
           Few things that are on my mind... 
  • I am SO over summer! 
  • I am SO ready for fall!
  • My mom and Aunt are currently driving right into the hurricane path to pick up sweet Mia 
  • September is SO close yet SO far away..
  • I am ready to get this cycle started
  • I found EWCM and a positive OPK two days ago..
Cloud Waterfall... do you see it?
Okay enough bullet points I can only take so many of those before I just have to start explaining! So as I have said about 103 times now we are starting clomid, heparin, ultrasounds, blood work all the fun stuff in September when AF shows her face for the third time.. I can't believe it has been almost 5 months since we lost our tiny one. I did a good job of not really thinking about the things we all think of after a loss, like how far along I would be, that I would be having baby showers, that I would be swollen to the moon because of this heat and my love for salt, about if we would be painting the spare room blue or pink.. or yellow. All the things that I worked so hard to push out of my mind for the last 5 months have started to creep in..A big thanks to En.famil on that one, they sent me an email saying "During your 8th month"  To be honest I am dreading October.. but at the same time if everything for September's cycle stays on track we could be getting our beta results in early Oct. So I guess it could be a bitter sweet month... or it could totally suck.. Either way I would like it to be here now! and I am pretty sure Scott is feeling the same way. I was a little surprised by my reaction to the ewcm and the +opk my very first thought was hell ya lets do this~ but then I started to think about how I long I have been waiting for this appointment with RE Dr. B and how I want to be in his care when I do conceive. I want the weekly ultrasounds for the first 12 weeks (which he said we can make happen ;) and I want the HSG to check out my insides.. I want it all because I am afraid if we do conceive on our own and are not in his care we face another loss..and that is the last thing in this world that I want. Okay that's enough of that.. 
:) positive attitudes only from this point forward 
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A few nights ago while laying in bed Scott started laughing, uncontrollably laughing, which got me laughing! Like the very unpretty hacking coughing can't catch your breath think you may pass out laughing, this seriously went on for a good 20 minutes. Every time it would get silent one of us would just burst with laughter. It felt good to laugh. After we both had finally calmed down he found my hand in the dark of the room and began to pray.. I don't remember word for word what he said but it was a prayer for a baby a healthy baby and soon. I just love that man so much he always makes me smile, and he is always there for me doing all that he can to better my life and make me happy. I am so grateful to have him as my husband, and I want so badly to make him a father..I just can't wait! I am getting so excited the anticipation is slowly killing me!! 
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So..I have to add some pictures
 because the words to pictures ratio on this post is awful! :)
 I dyed my hair girls! Dark... The color is called iced chocolate! Mmmm! However... I didn't read the directions because I have dyed my hair 345456 times in my life and know what I am doing..But this time I kinda forgot I was going light to dark and that my leave on time was only 10 minutes...23 minutes later I pick up the paper to glance over the steps before throwing it in the trash, my eyes went straight to the 10 and my head went straight to the bathtub faucet! Needless to say my iced chocolate is more like iced black coffee....
Its still cute though! well I at least I keep telling myself that!  I picked up a little red to through some chunks in there, just wash out red for now to see how I like it.. 

We also celebrated my cousins 15th birthday! I CAN NOT believe that he is so old.. He was my little baby doll growing up, I loved to dress him up and push him around my parents house in the stroller and now he is growing up! 
Zach(ary) Scott Me and Kailyn...are we twins or what?!

Scott and I are off the the Great American Ball Park tonight 
to watch the reds one last time for the summer
Have a lovely weekend Everyone! 
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13 comments:

  1. I am over summer and ready for fall too!!! Damn you en.famil!!! You have been incredibly strong and amazing. I have no doubt that the best of times are coming your way. Once you get there, all the pain you went through will be worth it. Promise. I know waiting to get started on the next cycle can be so difficult!! You have a great husband by your side to wait with you. Hugs to you!!! Hang in there. Have a great weekend!

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    1. Thank you :) and I have that same feeling, it will all be worth it!

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  2. Your hair color is gorgeous! I love dark on you!!
    And I am with ya sister...bring on Fall already!! I am happy this summer went by fast. I can totally relate to your feelings about wanting to be in the hands of your RE. Whatever happens, I feel so faithful and hopeful for you and Scott.
    Such a wonderful story about the moment you shared the other night. You have yourself a good man! :)
    Have so much fun tonight and know that we are all rooting for you. Come on September!!!
    Xoxox
    Maria

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    1. Thank you! I feel so much shinny-er (←is that a word?)Thanks for you wonderful support :)

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  3. aww lady!! Loved the part when you and your hubs couldnt stop laughing, those are seriously the best times ever!! Oh, and when he grabbed your hand and starting praying, that was beautiful. You really do have an amazing husband. Blessings!! Praying for you two <3333

    PS Love the hair!!!

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  4. I just started following your blog. I'm so sorry for your loss, but I'm excited for September for you!!

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  5. Lol at the post title!! Just stopping by for the first time!!

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  6. You are so lucky to have a husband like Scott, thank God everyday for him. I like your hair. You are always beautiful.

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  7. I'm so over summer too! Fall makes my heart smile!! Love the positive attitude!!!

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