This has been a long hard journey. I can have faith to a certain extent but there
are times that you can't help but throw in the towel and question why?
Why did Alexis and Scott have to go through the pain of losing two babies?
Why did we go through that sheer and utter joy of the news of her pregnancies
only to have it taken from them?
The news is littered with people miss treating their children.
I have witnessed more than I could ever care to of teen Moms
that are so "upset" to find out they are pregnant.
Moms at the mall that have not a clue where their kids are as they run
unsupervised through the store. Friends that cried in
disappointment at the news of a pregnancy.
I can't help but think every time " I bet you didn't even KNOW
that you had to have a follicle burst" I bet you don't even realize the
timing and the true miracle that it takes to conceive a child.
I remember the pain as if it were yesterday of not being able to get pregnant.
I remember going to my Mom's house and breaking down in sobs
because everyone around me was having a baby.
Most of which were "surprises" to the Mom's.
It breaks my heart everyday to see Alexis and Scott go through this.
That is when I have to question why.
Everyone that knows these two loves them.
They are kind, compassionate and
would literally give you the shirt off of their backs.
God knew what he was doing when he joined these two.
They will make the most amazing, loving parents.
They have a beautiful home, wonderful jobs not to mention two sets of
~Grandparents to be~ that will be there to swoop in and give their Child
more love than a baby can take.
That is when in moments of weakness I have to question why.
I know, I know it is not for us to question.
So today I will work on getting my faith back in order.
I will be beside her, in front of her, in back of her holding her up.
I will thank God that she has such a loving sweet Husband to be by her side.
I will concentrate on the fact that she has a top rated Doctor to help her.
I will find peace in the fact that she has all of you that understand the pain.
I will know that God will answer their prayers in time.
I KNOW that they will have the unfathomable love you feel
when they become parents.
I just wish they didn't have to go through the pain to get there.
In the mean time I better be looking for a part time job.
WHEN she gets her BFP, this baby will not want for a thing
Especially when it comes to love.
Michele ~ Alexis' Momma