6 weeks 1 day :)

6 weeks 1 day! 

My phone went off Saturday morning with an alert from an app I downloaded

it said..

Congratulations you are 6 weeks today! Half way through your 1st trimester! 

Wow. 

I never thought about it that way, I have always looked at it in weeks,

how many weeks am I? how many weeks do I have to go?

But to see it written out, that I am half way through my 1st trimester! 

that was a real Wow moment for me! 

I mean there are only 3 trimesters 

and to be half way through one seems huge to me

Truth is my apt. Friday was a little upsetting

I had my hopes to the moon that we would see babies heartbeat

The nurse we had, had the worst bedside manner E.V.E.R.

if you watched the video I am sure you heard her during the ultrasound 

when Scott said "thats it?"

like OMG That is it!? that is our baby?!

But instread of a happy reaction she said 

yep that's it, just a sac inside a sac no heartbeat yet but I warned you on that...

wtf. 

I mean really? 

this is our first time ever seeing even a sac! it was monumental to us, 

but to her if was just another sac. 

that really, really, upset me. 

I held it together until we got to the car, and then I lost it. 

I was just so damn dissappointed on how it went.

we literally saw baby for a mere 10 seconds. 

I wasn't expecting that. I was expecting a happy joyful experience

with a nurse that said "There is your baby!" Look at that! what a beautiful sac! 

No worries we will see the heartbeat next visit! 

but no.
I got, its a sac inside a sac no hb but I warned you... 

UGH. 

Okay 

anyways!!! 

I am totally over it now! I printed out a picture of the baby 

and hung it on my fridge, it is also the wallpaper on my phone! 

so I can see it all the time! 

I Am SO excited to be here, in this place. 

this happy place of pregnancy! I can not wait until 

our next ultrasound! I am going to call and request a different nurse before we go :)

Oh My. 

Okay well here is my 6 week picture :) 

The bloat never went away and now I think it is here to stay :) which I don't Mind at all. Hubs made the board :) & Me before dinner on Saturday my 6 week day!! :)