Lots of pics below, if you are not in the mood to read! :)
Lately. It feels like every other day is a good day.
It's hard to keep my strong face all day long, and sometimes when I get home
breaking down is what feels right. It doesn't last long at all, a short cry
and a little relaxing break on my comfy couch usually does the trick.
I feel like I am doing good though. I am always reminding myself to smile more!
I can talk about it more now,you know with out crying.
(sometimes) depending on who I am talking to.
Most everyone is afraid to say anything so they just avoid the topic all together,
which is fine with me, if I want to talk about it I will bring it up.
I had cocktails with a good friend last night and after about an hour she said
"okay, I'm just gonna say it, How are you doing?"
I told her how I was feeling and what all has been on my mind, and it was
nice to talk it out, some of the things that I have been thinking but never said.
Another friend sent me a lovely email, she also lost her baby at 12 weeks,
she attends a support group once a month and invited Scott and I to go with her.
I feel like I wanna go and see what it's like. After 3 losses you start to question yourself
and your body A LOT more than ever before. The next meeting is in 3 weeks, so we have
a little time to decide if we want to attend.
I have my check up tomorrow to make sure the infection has passed,
and to get the results of the testing. I am nervous. But hopeful.
We decided we are not giving up, its not like us to give up.
We know in our hearts that we will one day soon be parents to a living breathing child
that we can hold in our arms. ♥
Always remember to Keep Faith, Keep moving forward, Keep smiling,
& Keep your thoughts positive :)
Now onto the random pictures of the weekend! :P
|One Pink Ray, Shooting up from the setting sun!|
|Mmmm a Bloomin Onion from Outback :)|
|I like to capture days when I smile :D|
|Just a pretty building :)|
|Shannon's getting Married! Me Shannon and Elizabeth as her bridal shower!|
|This is Shannon :)|
|Couch date :)|
|Adorable Miss Mia ♥|
|Mexican Night :) that big drink is my long island! It's been a while since I have had one of those bad boys! Whew what fun!|
|I love holes in the clouds it reminds me of the country song "holes in the floor of heaven"|
|I was shopping this weekend, when walking past the JR. section this caught my eye! seriously...SERIOUSLY?!? and people wonder why so many teenagers think its "cool" to get pregnant!|
|My mom made this using the flowers we received from family and friends as the background for her inspiring words|