Friday, June 8, 2012

I did it..

I hit my first squirrel. 

I cried. 

I tried so hard not to hit the little guy, but I did and it was awful. 

I pulled over, called Scott and balled my eyes out! 

Poor Scott, thought something serious had happened. 

I have been sick for the past few days and last night was the worst. 
I woke up this morning barely able to move 
with out my head feeling like it may explode 
I was running behind, and my eyes were glued shut from all the crap in my head
I was on my way to work, feeling like poo and wanting to crawl back in bed. 
I knew I should have stayed home, poor squirrel. 

Scott said that right before I called him 
he was sitting at a traffic light thinking to himself about how 
amazing making a life really is, with all the chromosomes and 
things that must go perfectly right in order for a baby to be born
and about how he thinks we are ready to try again. 
Then I call. crying about a dead squirrel and ruin his moment! haha

But after I hung up the phone, I got to thinking. 
I think its time to make the call..
you know the one for the little pill that will send aunt flo into town. 
Its been 68 days and I think we have waited as long as we can stand
I am going to call on Monday morning and talk with the nurse 
so we can get this show on the road! 
I am excited to try again, excited but at the same time
I am nervous and scared.
For now I am keeping positive thoughts 
and reminding myself every moment that
In the end... what will be will be... 

5 comments:

  1. Maybe the squirrel was your "sign"....or it had rabies and you did a good thing... Ok I dunno but I told myself the same thing when I hit a racoon (gross)

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  2. Hey! You forgot to tell me we were finished at the rest stop and driving on to the destination ! Lol
    I'll download the music and get some snacks who's driving?! Let's switch it up & let Dr. B and nurse D drive this time. We can listen to music and sleep : )
    Love momma
    P.S. Sorry to hear about Mr. Squirrel : (

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  3. I would have done the same thing!! At least you felt bad about it... that's something!
    That's super cute that hubs was thinking about that stuff. Awe :) It had to cheer you up a little to hear him say those things.
    I think it's about time you get that pill too... it's really not so bad, and you guys can start ttc again!! :) So exciting!

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  4. alexis!! awww, i'm so so sorry you hit the squirrel! it is CRAZY to read this, bc i just had a conversation with my friend yesterday about running over animals.
    we were driving and there was a dead kitty on the side of the road. my eyes welled up and i almost lost it. ahh, i keep thinkin' about him! i wanted to turn around and she was like, "wait, what are you going to do?!" lol
    i called steve last year hysterical bc someone hit a deer and it was sitting in the middle of the road struggling to get up. i wanted to stick him in my car and help him. i'm crazy like that.
    you have such a huge heart.
    i'm so glad you feel good about your decision and as always, am rooting for you big time!! i hope and pray for you each day...you're going to get your dream, beautiful lady!!

    xoxox
    maria <3

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  5. You poor thing! Its horrible to hit an animal. I'm so glad you guys are feeling ready to start again. Iv'e have been so blessed to never lose a child, I cant begin to imagine how scary it must be to try again, good on you for being so brave.

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