This morning went well,
I had my follicle scan today on CD 11
the left side is taking charge
with 3 lead follicles
16mm, 12mm and 11mm
I go back on Wednesday to check their growth.
My lab tests came back as well.
Everything looked great,
my ovarian reserve is good, thank god.
and my "pcos'ieness" came back
Dr. G thinks these insulin levels maybe
what has been causing my miscarriages.
when your insulin levels are high you have
a 50% chance of miscarriage. . . .
why the F*&^@ didn't anyone
ever push this information in my face before?!
I have been on Metformin yes.
and anyone who has been on metformin
knows how lovely it is. So I must admit
when we weren't cycling I was pretty lax on taking it.
If I would have known that all along it could
have been affecting my ability to carry a baby
I would have been taking that shit like it was my job.
ugh..-_- Now I know.....
So were hoping that this increased dose
of metformin along with the other supplements
we can control my levels and have a healthy pregnancy.
We will determine the date for IUI #4 on Wednesday.
I am hoping they all three step up their game
and are ready for trigger Wednesday night!
In other news..
I am down 11lbs and 2 points off my BMI
after 30 full days of Carb Free / Gluten Free
I'm pretty pumped about these numbers! :)
Carb free isn't fun.
The first 3 days of headaches were killer
but it eventually got better.
Now my only real challenges are..
Eating dinner at someones house..
getting to the starvation point..
Dining out I've learned is all mental..
I went to Fridays on Friday lol..
for a work meeting and chose to get
the sizzling chicken and shrimp which
just so happens to come with a side of mashed
so while looking at the menu I was like ok no big deal
I can just sub it out for broccoli..
but as we waited for the server my mind crept to dark places..
"what if I "forget" to say no mashed potatoes"
"I mean their already on my plate I should just eat them"
"How many carbs can there really be in mashed potatoes"
"No no no, no mashed potatoes just say broccoli"
So the server returns to the table and I raise my hand
to order first because I know if I don't get the word broccoli
out of my mouth now I'm going to end up with a
belly full of potatoes and a guilty mind.
So broccoli it was.. and when It came to the table I
was so happy I made the right choice!
Eating at peoples houses is more of a challenge
to me than dinning at a restaurant!
I mean you don't want to be rude.
But you also don't want to go into full detail
about why you can't eat their display of carbs..
I try to go straight for the veggie tray.
Eating before starvation has been tricky
when you aren't eating carbs you are eating
A LOT more food. vegetables are great
but as for filling, you get an hour or two out of them
protein is where its at, it fills you up and keeps you full
but when it starts to wear off, you're hungry almost instantly
and when that happens those bad thoughts start to creep back in..
"maybe I'll just grab a wrap.."
"Chicken nuggets are quick they can't be that bad"
I've learned I must have crave curber's with me at all times.
Bag of mixed nuts, a string cheese, some yogurt
something to keep my brain entertained until I can get home to cook.
Speaking of Cook...
That's the other challenge of this new lifestyle
almost everything must be cooked or prepared.
I love cooking I hate cleaning..
there for I dread making a mess.
and 9 times out of 10 I clean before I cook
and then after I cook. Which is too much cleaning for me.
But I am almost always satisfied with every meal.
I finish eating what ever it is I have just slaved over
and think, That was so worth it.
One thing I've lacked is working out.
I have to take things in small doses.
And changing your life to carb free gluten free
is a huge F*^#$ing deal..
So the gym misses me...but I'll get there.
If your the praying type we would
appreciate some prayer for our 4th IUI
coming up at the end of the week!
If not well wishes will do just as good! :)
Thanks So Much!!