IUI 5!

Holy Hell how is it already April 6th?!

April 1st came and went and I survived. 

I'm pretty sure I will always hate that day. 

I can't believe it's been 3 years since we lost our 3rd angel

and I find it even harder to believe that we are still on 

this shit ass roller coaster! 

In 3 months it will be an entire year since our 4th loss. 

It' absolutely insane to me how fast time passes. 

Tomorrow is CD14 and I will go for my second follicle scan.

My scan on Friday showed 1 lead at 14mm and

2 more not far behind.. So we will get to peek at those tomorrow

and hopefully they will be ready for trigger and IUI number FIVE 

on Wednesday! Five freaking IUI's that's just crazy. 

I am praying so hard that this IUI works. 

If it doesn't...were already on the list for IVF in early July.

The thought of it makes me want to puke. 

I know I can do it physically. 

I have no problem with needles or injections. 

But the hormones, The OHSS risk and the uncertainty of the entire thing 

scares the living shit out of me. 

I guess we will cross that bridge when we get there! 

So for now fingers toes legs arms eye balls crossed 

that IUI#5 is our lucky charm!