F E T

Time is flying by. 

Yesterday I started my Estrace 

I also switched my diet up to 100% clean 

by 2pm my head was throbbing. 

I was also mildly bitchy 

and I felt super irritated. 

I got home around 5 and napped till 7

Scott called to tell me he would be working later

when I hung up the phone I cried. 

He often works overtime so I'm not sure 

why I was crying. In that moment I just missed him.

When he got home I cried again. 

is it possible for Estrace to dump it's shit 

side effects on you so quickly?

Anyways he asked why I was crying 

to which I had no real reason but blurted out..

Debbie called our embryo a "he" today

then I cried harder. 

He said why are you crying?! will you be upset if its a boy!? 

to which I quickly replied NO NO NO that is not why I am upset! 

I'm upset because I didn't want to know the sex!

I then told him the rest of the story and how 

she said he then quickly said or she...

and after I told the whole story out loud 

I realized that I sounded insane.
Scott began laughing and said welp there's still a 50/50 chance then! 

At least I can mark day one off the calendar and hope 

that day two is better! 

15 more sleeps till our transfer!!

AHHHHHHHH!