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 I am so happy to be back in this space! I took to Instagram after Sawyer was born and abandoned my blog, I am bringing it back to life as we prepare to become a family of four. I was so vulnerable and raw when we went through Sawyers adoption. We had just decided two months prior that we were going to just be done with everything. We felt like we had exhausted all of our options and most of our funds.  I didn't know what to expect. The whole process with the lawyers and the paperwork felt so invasive and cold. I spent a lot of time angry at the process, this time I want to be a voice for others going though it. I want to help prepare someone like me who needed to hear real life stories on how it all works and what all is involved and why it's ok to feel the way you feel about the process but how to embrace it and love it and see that in the end it is all so so very worth it.  Going forward in my posts I will refer to Sawyer's birth parents as K, B and C to respect their id